Love;

Love is a weird thing. 

When I was little I always thought I would fall in love and be in love with that person for the rest of my life.

I'd find him and that would be it. 

Boy, was I wrong.

I've been in love multiple times.

With all the wrong people of course.

But I still have faith in that little four letter word.

I've been broken and beaten. 

Shattered.

Bruised.

But love is still bursting through me, trying to find the one who will fill all those holes and patch up all those bruises.

I know I will still fall in love with the next great guy who comes along and sweeps me off my feet.

I fall fast for guys. 

I allow myself to love hard and deep because if I don't I know I'll regret never feeling that feeling.

I love LOVE.

I love sweet kisses.

I love long hugs.

I love feeling that person staring at you admiring you at random moments.

I love the sweet touches against my face.

I love the tenderness.

I love cuddling.

I love when your holding hands and they rub your fingers with theirs.

I love the happiness.

All those things happen and you catch feelings.

And then something happens and you break up and then you think you will never love again.

But the next guy always comes.

But I am tired of that "next guy". 

I want "THE" guy. 

I want;

the best friend

the companion

the lover

the partner

the real deal

the everything in one.

I'm done falling in love with these guys who just care about themselves.

I'm ready to be with someone and STAY with someone.

Someone who is committed to this life WITH me.

I don't want to fight to keep love in my life.

I want easy.

I want LOVE.

I want happiness. 

I want;

kissing

cuddles

hand holding

long walks & long talks

romance

cute little surprises

silly fights

more good times then bad

no second guessing

trust

faith

patience

understanding

loyalty

etc.

One day I will find it and I will be the luckiest woman in the world...

ONE DAY

Wake up.

Sweetheart listen to me. It's time to leave it alone. It's time to put your big girl panties on and move forward with your life.

I know what you are thinking. "No, I can't he really loves me, he will realize it and we will make up! We always do!" 

You need to stop giving in to him, and you need to stop going back to the boy who keeps leaving you in the first place. He’s clearly not scared of losing you, and that means something.

When people say love is blind, it’s definitely true. You are only seeing what you want to see, focusing on the good things. You may think he treats you okay, maybe that you’ll never do better and that you’re not just another girl to him.

Let's think about it: Why do you love the idea of something or someone? There are more then seven billion people in the world and you are hung up on one?! Why love the idea of who you WANT him to be when you can find someone who CAN be that person? 

If it's one thing you shouldn't settle for its the person you spend your life with. 

SO STOP. 

LEAVE.

WALK AWAY.